I feel I should Explain...

[Echo]

I feel I should Explain my long absence, even if it does mean letting you into my life. I dont mind, you are all friends.
My boyfriend broke up with me because he thought I was faking our releshonship, I knew it was shaky, but this made a black hole suck up all of my feelings and jam them into a little container. Making me feel as if I was to explode. Thus far, anybody who has felt Heartache, or Break, know's that this is what I speak of. We stopped talking for days on end. And one day, he broke up.
I wanted to scream, and cry, and jump up and down asking why. But what could I do? I have to much pride, and it was utterly hard to do this. But I simply said: "Oh, glad somebody said it, I didn't want to hurt your feelings."
oh, yes, sure, whatever, ya, I am fine. No, I am not, and I need SERIOUS help. The fact is, I haven't ever had a broken heart, before the other day that is. I always broke other's heart, or I really didn't give a nuts about the others. I took him for granted, but now, I feel so stupid. And if he reads this, I hope he understands my feelings towards him have not waned over the few months. (oh ya, believe me, I was counting the days I was his lucky girl)

Wow, it sounds dumb, but hell, its true, and now, I want to kick his "all knowing" ass

[+ RJ]

First of all, it doesn't sound stupid at all, at least to me, because I know exactly what you're talking about. The first time that happens to you, it makes you a little cautious about other people for a while. Sometimes you're not even sure what to think about yourself. I know it doesn't sound true, and it does sound cliche, but it will get better. I promise. It always does even if you think that there's no way it ever could.
And thank you for sharing with us because we missed you a lot and I'm really really sorry about what happened.

Believe me, you don't want to ask him why--at least from my experience all that leads to is more lies and more trouble, and you probably won't find a honest (or reasonable, good) answer.
Also, I gotta ask, how long has it been since he broke up with you?

[Echo]

like, last week. I know, that isn't the full time that I was gone, I had lots of school blah blah blah, and I didn't really have time. Etc, Etc.

[+ RJ]

Oh it's only been a week. I was under the empression it had been a few months.

[Echo]

really? You're joking right?

[+ RJ]

No. Seriously, I think i just misread something... Anyway, did he ever give you a reason?

[Echo]

? He thought I was faking

[Randy]

I agree with RJ, it doesn't sound stupid at all. Unfortunately you'll be going through that kind of shit you're whole life. Fortuneatly you get used to it, and learn how to heal your heart. But, it will get better, and it probably won't even take all that long(I doubt it'll even be a year). You'd be surprised how fast the heart heals itself.

[+ RJ]

I tend to shut off emotions and therefore get over things quicly. That's just me tho.

[Randy]

Jeez, yeah, I tend to do that, too... I tend to just stop caring. *shrug* If they're not interested in me than, fuck them. So, yeah, Echo, like we said, it'll easier. ^^

[+ RJ]

I think it's a little more two sided than that

[Randy]

Which part?

[Clyde]

someone felt like deleting my post eh? -_-

[Echo]

(Psstttt what did it say? and dammit clyde I cant postbecause of your damn avatar my computer frezes and it doesnt work could you perhps change it? it is annoying the crap outa me!jess agug! *dies*

[Clyde]

no thanks i like it